hello):
today's been the WORST day like ever.i had a really really really bad diarrhea.like some serious fuck ahhhhhh.so i didnt get to watch the performance during assembly.they were dancing to salaam namaste luhhhh!whore ass): and the results were out today!&&& mrs wong was supposed to see my papa!but they told me at the fucking last minute!stupid moronic school,always last minute ahhhh.so now i'm still scared): i dont want to fucking retain,the class says that i wont,but i'm still scared.I DONT WANT TO EFFING RETAIN!I DONT WANT!if i do,WHICH I DONT WANT TO,then there WILL be black parade.i've decided the coffin that i want.i'll seriously just kill myself): eff okayyyyy.first thing in the morning was diarhhea,then results,then worry about retaining,then i brokedown in the toilet when i thought about hunn's departure tomorrow)))))': what will make him NOT leave?i dont know.i'm confused,is there a need to wait.i dont even know when he's coming back!i feel like telling him to come back already.what am i going to do during the holidays?!!i'll be so effing sad luhhhh,i'll just cry my eyes/heart/lungs/brains out.jen kept trying to talk me out &stuff,but i cant get over it.he's leaving tomorrow,he's going to leave me being helpless here,& i've got so much to worry about.we argue about the slightest things that i do.he'll tell me to stop puffing and i'll say no,then the list goes on.my condition's going to get worst.OMGGGGG,dont leave)': i have no mood to go out with anyone anymore.
& i'm staying over at hunn's place tonight,i cant fucking take it.everyone's telling me to relax.IT ISNT EASY,really.4 months arent enough): i feel so blue.my fucking stomach aches yet again.i feel like blood parading.i dont feel like going for that stupid depressing camp.its going to make me more depressed,fuck it ahhhhh.where's roland!you man whore,come and cheer me up)': he's going to say an zua ehh friend.hah.yay,i grinned(: UNDEPRESSED PEOPLE,A LITTLE HELP HERE PLEASEEEEEEE.i'm going to stop complaining now,till the next time(:







;i have with me,heavens divine.